Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Toobin down the Guadalupe
It's now know to me that if you complain about something enough, you will get, but not always in the way you want.
We took a trip down to New Braunfels this past weekend to go tubing down the river. Everything was suppose to be fun. Okay, so I guess the trip was alright, but we could have had a much better time.
We were suppose to leave Friday evening around 6 to make the 3.5/4 hour drive. We didn't end up leaving until after 8. The drive wasn't too bad going down there. When we stopped for gas in Salato, I had the creepy mechanical arm guy talk to me. No lie. He told us how he changed cars every day because he was stalking his ex-wife who had his kid. Weirdo.
We didn't get down to New Braunfels until almost 2 and then we had to try and find the campgrounds. I'm sure all of us females know by now, MEN CAN'T FOLLOW DIRECTIONS. I was so tired and aggrivated and the guys had no clue where they were going. Finally we took the map from them and got to the campgrounds.
We almost didn't get to stay there because we couldn't find a damn spot and the punk ass kid at the front said they weren't very busy. Yeah right. We finally found a spot that was actually perfect. There was plenty of room and a firepit already built up. We unloaded the cars and were finally able to go to bed around 4:30.
The next morning we were on the river at about 11. Tubing down the Guadalupe takes about 6 hours.
We slathered on the sunscreen, made sure the cooler was tied down, and set off. They were fairly busy but it actually wasn't too bad. Justin and Amy got inebriated rather early in the trip. We met up with a group of people from Sweetwater and floated with them. In total we lost: 2 hats, a pair prescription sunglasses, a pair of flip-flops, a credit card and $20 ( at least we think the last two were on the river ). I got to go away with the worst sunburn in the history on mankind.
Most of us were dehydrated and sun sick from the ride and by 9:30pm we had had enough. We packed up everything and headed home. It was a rough drive just because all of us were so tired and ill feeling but we all made it.
Sunday, most of us vegged in our beds. Justin and I slept until 1 or so and then unpacked. We picked Savannah up from Kim's house and ate at Herrera's, which HIT THE SPOT. I felt so much better after eating a real meal. We vegged the rest of the evening.
My sunburn really isn't too bad. My legs are the only thing that is killing me.
We decided next time we go to the Guadalupe:
1) We aren't going in Mid-July. I said I would rather go in December and freeze my ass off.
2) We are either getting a cabin or at least a camp site with electricity so we can have a/c
3) We aren't getting there that late at night
4) We will be lucky if we ever do this again.
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Thursday, July 21, 2005
Then why does it present such ugly situations to us? I can't write much because I am about to leave to go to lunch but felt like I needed to write something down.
Tiffany, a girl I work with, found out she is about 5 weeks pregnant. The father is a guy she has been on and off with for a few months. I didn't talk about it much with her when she found out, because she wasn't trying to announce it to the world.
Today, I, in a roundabout way, found out she is going to have an abortion. She had talked to the doctor and he told her about a D&C. She did not know what this was and to be honest, I have never known either. I did some research and found a very informative page to send to her. She e-mailed me back and said she was on the phone with the clinic.
I believe it has truly hit her now. The past thirty minutes she has been crying non stop and wants to get away from the office ( hence, the reason I am leaving ). I don't believe she wants to do this, she was once a surrogate mother, but feels this is the only way to go.
She did mention and even called him, that her hairdresser ( who I believe is gay ) had wanted a child. She called and told him she found out she was pregnant and wanted to leave all her options open.
I feel so bad for her and can't imagine what is going through her head.
If you stop by and read this, can you please either pray for or keep her in your thoughts? Grant her the strength to do what's in her heart?
Thank you.
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Tuesday, July 19, 2005
Last night was suppose to have been a nice evening. We have dinner, drop Savannah off, and go to the movie. How hard is that? For us, VERY.
Dinner itself was good, but Justin said, after talking to Ron, he got the impression they didn't want to watch her. Why did they offer then? Both of us have decided this is more than likely the starting point of heading downhill with Savannah staying with Cindy and Ron. We have to talk to them...and soon.
Savannah was still not asleep when we left, close to 9. The dealership had morons working there yesterday so they did not leave my car out so we could pick it up and I was unable to come in early today to make up hours and they lost my keys this morning. We finally go the theater close to home and they are showing the movie. It was horrible, so horrible that we didn't stay. It lacked something. I guess I was expecting it to be much like the original ( Johnny Depp is no where near what Gene Wilder was ) and it lacked that spark and excitement to draw you in. Justin fell asleep and I was bored, so we went home. I would much rather sleep than watch that sorry waste of my time.
My first follow-up appointment was today. After sitting in the lobby for 45 minutes they finally took me in for my sonogram. The cyst is there and has shrunk by 1 cm. They took some blood to verify that it is indeed benign. I also have another follow-up in October that has yet to be scheduled.
We are heading to the Guadalupe this weekend for some tubing. Aimee and Justin got all the details worked out yesterday. We just have to figure out who all is going. I think grilled chicken in wine and vegtables sound good for dinner. Do you?
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Monday, July 18, 2005
Mundane and trying to stay sane
Most of the time when I open this page up to start writing, I an taken back to English class in high school. The teacher stands up and announces that the class is writing a paper. They give you a topic- which you can't even fathom how to write a paper on- or topics-from which you end up tossing a coin to decide which one to pursue. Then for the remaining 45 minutes or hour and 15 minutes, you sit at your desk, starring blankly at the empty page, twiddling your pencil, ideas flowing through your head. You can't ever seem to grasp just one. They all end up runnng into each creating a large creative trainwreck in your head. Then the bell rings and you realize you have spend the last how ever many minutes of your life doing nothing but giving yourself a headache.
I don't always have this problem. If there is something I really want to write about, I could go on and on. A lot of the time I sit here for a good 10 or fifteen minutes trying to think of what to write about that isn't so boring as to make one think I would be better off knitting a scarf. Sometimes it works, others, well not so much.
I have nixed the idea of "creating a side business." I decided it was another stupid idea of mine that will never happen. It's a good thing I always figure this out before spending lots of money. Okay, so I didn't think before spendding ridiculous amounts of money, but that was the first time in doing that. I believe I have grown.
I don't know why I feel the need to do something new. Something to wrap my time in. And it's not all for me either. Most of the ideas that flow from my disfunctional brain are to benefit my family in some way. They also give me something to do. I suppose Justin is right. I'm moody. He called my moody on Friday night as Amy was getting ready to dye my hair two shades darker.
My search for a new job is not helping this either. I feel like I am never going to get away from this hell. I e-mailed a recruiter this morning that I was referred to. He is suppose to be wonderful at getting me out of here and with more money. I haven't heard back from him yet. I know it hasn't even been 8 hours, but what can I say. Extremely impatient.
Today my friend here at work confided in me that she is pregnant. She does not know what she is going to do. The father is psycho. They have a crazy relationship. This guy is madly ( to the point of being too much ) in love with her. She doesn't like committment. She is so stressed. I almost told her that I would trade places with her ( in the sense of being pregnant ) if I could, but I didn't. Just kept my mouth shut.
Lately, everything we do, I wonder and try to imagine " what would this be like with two children?"
Like the screaming fits Savannah throws when it's time to go to bed or if she doesn't get what she wants or what she thinks she wants. Could I handle being at home by myself and running my errands on the weekends with two children? The other night, we were at Dave and Busters and behind us sat a family that had two girls that were 10.5 months apart. Justin asked if it was easy and she said "There were many nights I cried in the beginning." No shit. There were nights that I cried with only having Savannah. I get scared and nervous but then I get jealous and "longing." Jeremy's counsin Amanda came over this weekend with them. She, too, is pregnant. We talked a lot. She wants a little girl.
Nothing much has changed with us and I don't suspect it will anytime soon. If it does, don't worry, you will know.
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Friday, July 08, 2005
Long but probably not awaited
Do things ever slow down? Will my head ever stop spinning in circles to resemble that of the Excorcist?
Probably not.
Things have been incredibly busy but not necessarily in a bad sense.
This past weekend was July 4th. You have to love Independence Day. We had many parties and lots of Pina Colada. I am now know as "the wife" up at the fireworks supercenter. I walked in and everyone knew me. I shook many hands and received lots of hugs. We gave the most beautiful display of fireworks ever known to man thanks to the contents of "The Biggon". Not even Wiley Coyote could rig a show of explosions to match the ones we had. It was beautiful.
This was also Savannah's first 4th of July to see fireworks. She was in awe for the first half but then she decided she was too tired to care and wanted to go to bed.
Last night we had the priviledge of tasting the "high life". We went to the Rough Riders game and got to have suite. It rocked my world. The stadium itself is very nice, of course it's only a couple years old. You have a great view of the field no matter where you sit. The suite itself was cool. We had so much food ( pizza, huge hot dogs, chicken strips, wings, chips-n-queso, salad, a dessert tray, and a fruit tray ). Savannah dug the fruit tray. She tried taking half of it home with us that end of the night. And as always everything on the tray was "apple!" Crazy child. The game was a blast even though we lost 6-1, but we should still do that more often.
Bear has been extremely frustrating this past week or so. After tearing into the bottle of hydrocortisone cream, he started having horrible diareaha. He started going in the house while we were at work. We finally got him a kennel but that didn't help much the other day. I have discovered that you don't give dogs bones with flavoring on them. I came home the other night to puke/diareaha on the carpet and a disgusting dog that had drug his kennel across the living room. He got a bath that night along with his kennel. I still haven't gotten around to shampooing the carpet although we got the spots up. I guess I found my job for tonight.
Speaking of jobs, I am still actively searching. I have had a few interviews but nothing promising or what I am wanting. I will continue my search. Work here has been crazy. They have tightened the reins, so to speak in a sense. Some of my favorite people are no longer here which sucks.
Justin and I had a talk a couple weeks ago and have decided that we will start TTC after the following have occured:
-I get a new job ( that pays more, hence being able to pay for a bigger family )
-We both stop smoking. We have started this and let me tell you, it sucks and it's hard, but I'm making it through.
-We get healthier. Justin wants us to both eat healthier and exercise. He's afraid we will BOTH go to blobs after another child.
-We talk to Cindy and Ron about childcare costs ( no way in hell I am paying $1200/month for childcare )
-Savannah is potty trained ( our biggest task so far, in my opinion ).
On your mark, get set, GO!!!
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Tuesday, June 28, 2005
A yummy end to a boring lunch.
No new job yet. Still looking and applying. Sucky thing is that I found out all the colleges are already registering for fall which starts in August.
Justin may actually see about getting a job here at my firm. Our runner is quitting and Justin said he would love to do that job depending on the pay. I am waiting to hear back from HR on that.
Savannah is well. We had some issues with her sleeping for a few days but she is back to her normal self. Angel.
We also have a new member of the family. We got Bear this past Saturday. He is a beautiful Austalian Shephard/ Border Collie mix. Approximately 1 year old and on the bigger side. He is the sweetest thing ever and he's potty trained. Another great thing? He can go outside with us and won't take off. He will wander around the yard but as soon as you call him he comes running back. Awesome. He is big but thinks he is a lap dog. He loves to crawl in your lap and go to sleep, whether or not you are comfortable. He's sweet and Savannah loves him. She thinks he is a pony, as she keeps trying to ride on him. He just gives us this look as though he is saying "help". Ha-ha.
Looking forward to this weekend. Saturday Justin is working part day, which is great because I was under the impression he would be working all day. It's also only on Saturday. He will come home and we are going to Jeff and Natalie's for a BBQ and to watch the fireworks that the community sets off. Great fun.
I guess we have a "family picnic" to go to as well on the 26th (?). It's out at Southfork and they are suppose to have hay rides, pony, rides, food, music, games and other events. Should be fun for Savannah.
I have been trying to figure out some things Justin and I have talked about recently. He told me plain and clear that he wants another child and has wanted another child for a while now. He just never told me this because he knew we weren't ready ( not like we are now ). Anyway, as you know, he said that once I find another job ( or I suppose him if he gets manager or this runner and it pays more ) that I could go to school. He also said we could ttc. I suppose I am trying to figure out how all of this will happen and in what order. Both I want very much so we will see.
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Thursday, June 16, 2005
I'm just going to blogger hell for not updating like I should.
I've been around here and there. Seems like the past couple weeks have been so busy. I have had a wicked cough that I can't seem to shrug off. Oh bliss. It's pretty bad when you wake not only yourself up, but your spouse at 2 am in a raging cough fit. Nyquil is great, isn't it?
Justin decided he wanted to have a "boxing party" this Saturday. I have no clue as to where this idea came from. We watch boxing every weekend and everyone is suppose to bring a box of something. Box of wine, box of beer, box of chicken. Whatever comes in a box.
Tuesday, I actually had a girls night out! ( You can pick your jaw up off the ground now ) Tara invited me to go see Mr. and Mrs. Smith. That movie is so awesome. Brad and Angelina are so great and hillarious. I recommend this movie to any married couple. I told Justin we would have to go see it.
Sour gummy worms are the bomb. So good.
Justin's grandmother was suppose to be coming down for a couple weeks to stay with us, but we aren't sure if she is now. His Aunt Lisa is not doing well and everyone is trying to get her to have surgery. Of course, she doesn't want it. If she does have it, her trip will be postponed so she can be with Lisa. We aren't too upset. It's better for her to be with Lisa and neither one of us will miss her doing dishes and clanking liquor glasses at midnight.
My angel is doing wonderful. Becoming a terrible two-some more and more each day. Her newest words are "cool", "Aw, man", "Elephant", and "I see you". So cute. Last night on our way to bed ( her room ) she kissed every single item she passed. The couch, coffee table, recliner, dining room chair, wine rack, bathroom door, and two walls all got goodnight kisses.
I was looking up house values ( yes, I was rather bored ) the other day and discovered they finally put up the pictures of the houses. I was amazed at how well our house looked. We must have just mowed the lawn.
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Friday, June 03, 2005
Damn it feels good to be a gangsta
Not that I would know what it's like, but it's a good song. I wish I could beat the crap out of our fax machine.
There is nothing to be updated because nothing has happened to need an "update."
My day was going good. Had some cake, went to Mario and Albertos for lunch and then, my day started going not so good. Nothing has happened to make it bad, but I am just not in my zone. I wonder if it's from the helium I sucked in so we could sing Jennifer "Happy Birthday." We are so brilliant.
I suppose you could say I am in "Balloon Head" mood.
Ingredients:
1 part tired
1 part sick of the people I work with and the job itself
2 parts aggravation from a certain husband
1 part frustration in the guy who hasn't emailed me back about the dog
1 part fury at mother nature for making me a woman ( Damn you )
I need a pick me up and can't seem to think of anything. I don't want to go home. I am sick of going home and doing absolutely not a damn thing.
I was at home last night ( with a certain husband ) and what did I do? I did all the damn laundry, cooked dinner, gave Savannah a bath, cleaned the kitchen, and picked up the living room. What did a certain husband do? Talk on the phone, sit on the couch watching tv, and go outside hunting for a wasp and spiders because he was in a bad mood. That's funny because whenever I am in a bad mood, I still do everything I need to do; I just don't talk to anyone. Oh, I did that last night anyway.
Then tonight I get to go home and take care of Savannah while he and Jeff drive all the way to fucking Prosper to pick up our new washer and dryer in the rain. He actually thought we would make it down to Carrollton tonight but he is a man and doesn't realize that they won't be home until 8 or so and I am NOT leaving the house after 8. So he will probably head down to Chris and Stephen's and leave me at the house ( AGAIN! ) for the night ( he left me at the house and went to the block party last weekend ). I'm getting sick of this shit. He claims he hates going out w/o me. Could have fooled me with as much as he goes out.
I don't even want to go to Carrollton. Especially if it's to Sherri and Bill's. I don't think I want to see Jenny at all. I know I will become upset and depressed if I do. I wonder if I am the only one who compares myself to her? She can do no wrong. She is probably back to her size 2 self while I am stuck being ugly and frumpy looking ( I'm not really frumpy but compared to her I sure feel like it ).
I'm entering that phase of "boredom" again. I need something new. A new project or thing to distract me. I hate these phases. This is usually e beginning of my semi-depressions.
I want Tuesday to be here so I can go to the doctor and get that over with. I don't think I want Justin to go. He doesn't seem interested or to care so I will spare him the waste of time and having to get up early.
I need to take a break.
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Tuesday, May 31, 2005
It's not that big of a deal. No need to be worried. Cysts are normal and they usually go away on their own. How am I not worried about this I haven't a clue. Justin seemed to be more scared than me. 20 years old and I have cysts. I really am older than I seem, huh? My sonogram is on Tuesday at 9:30.
Everybody in my area has said this weekend was awesome. Did they not get the on and off downpours that we did? We were in Emory most of the weekend and it wasn't too bad. Rained most of Saturday and a little of the way back on Sunday. The golf cart was fun. Justin lost money in Texas Hold'em. Go figure.
I have decided that I am meant to be pale and pasty white for the rest of my life. Well my legs anyway. I have no problems getting the rest of me to darken. Legs suck. I refused to leave the house to go to the pool due to the mess that had developed on my skin. I'm such an idiot. Oh well.
We did BBQ last night and thanks to Justin we didn't end up with burnt hot dogs and hamburger. Jeff, you never fail to amaze us. Of course Stephen met some girl at the pool who was way too young. Even Chris wanted nothing to do with her and her friend. And of course, I walk into Jeff and Natalie's kitchen and she is sitting down on the floor with Stephen getting some water. I never actually figured out if she was drunk or under the influence or simply stupid and doing a bad job of making a first impression. *rolls eyes*
$7 bags of fertilizer work.
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Monday, May 23, 2005
This weekend was not easy.
Friday night was okay. Crimson and Jeremy had Aubrey with them. We went over to the Creek Village to play on the futuristic playground. That place is so cool.
Saturday Justin worked all day at Parade of Homes. The rest of us spent the day at the pool, which can be viewed on my back from the painful sunburn that is now there.
Yesterday, Justin worked again. He and my mom had planned a lunch for me yesterday ( was suppose to be a surprise but Justin is no good at secrets ) but it fell through so I was upset about it. I cleaned all day long and Savannah had worn me my lowest low. I had just had enough. He got home and immediately wanted to go to the pool to get away from me. This sent me into a fit and I started to bawl. He left and said to call when I wanted him to come home or to go to the pool with him. After a little bit, Savannah and I went to the pool.
I was happy after that. Justin also bought me an awesome collage kit. I already have tons of ideas for things to make.
I'm stressing over money again. We made out our budget about a month or two ago but we haven't really followed it. I need to re-do it and we need to stick to it.
We are suppose to go camping this next weekend but Justin won't do ANYTHING that I ask him to ( find out if he is working any shows, call Ross about his camping gear, find out when he can leave this weekend, etc ). I don't think we will end up going.
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